03.10.2019

Being with someone who loves you with no conditions is weird – like, someone who doesn’t want you to change any part of who you are or compromise yourself for them. It feels almost not real. I feel like he loves me as much as I love him, and he just does. I didn’t have to make him like me, pretend or be fake to make him interested like I have so many times. It’s mutual? I feel like I’m trapped inside a cave of anxiety about the whole thing. Like rocks are going to start falling down the walls of the cave in an avalanche. Dating my best friend is everything I thought it would be, and that’s scary. I don’t want the walls to cave in on us.